Code of appreciating music

[feel_the_wind]

I was just thinking, I seem to have an unusual code of appreciating music. I guess unusual is a very usual thing for me by now, I actually wonder if it's worth using that word. But to me, music is private, something to be enjoyed alone, inside, not really with others. Even when I'm in a packed concert hall, when the lights dim and the first chords are struck, everyone else becomes non-matter, and it's just me and the music, flowing with it, flying with it. If my music space is ever invaded, or if someone tries to push music at me, I get very upset. (Like, if someone turns on the radio in a car, I have to get out. Kind of makes travelling difficult.)

Singing, though, is different. That's outwards, and if there is a mutual feeling of sharing song, it's okay with the right people. It can be very fun. I'll sing with Maia, I'll sing with birds, and I'll sing for the heck of singing, but for the latter I don't like anyone else to hear. I think it's okay for people to sing in the open, though, even if I don't like what they're singing, so long as it doesn't actually disturb me.

Sometimes I hum never-ending melodies from nowhere. It's like they come from the heart. My own special birdsong. Once I start singing I feel so good I never want to stop, it can go on for hours endlessly, never getting old because it varies and builds up and goes down and weaves around itself and flows back into the main tune, and so on.